what i feel

Hai.. sorry for not taking a good care of this blog.. i'm freaking busy with all many things.. hmmm just wanna straight to my topic there..
Yes, my heart is very fragile. I cant stand by my own if there's anything bad happened towards me.
During this semester, i've faced many hard situation..and also vice versa of course. As times goes by, i'm 20 now. And my feeling still same like before.. my dad always said that 'takpayah la nangis2. 2 tahun ke 20 tahun ni?' And i know he trying to comfort me when i'm crying if i'd faced hard situation by making me laugh same goes to mom.
Hmmm.. maybe i'm the choosen one..maybe.. going through this semester, i've been met many doctors.. every month i'll go to the clinic, there are 2 or 3 times i need to go there.. how should i do? I dont have anyone here.. yes i know, crying is not a best solution for curing everything, but i belief it is the easiest way to comfort me. Last month, i've been infected by bacteria throughout my body.. And its become itchy. Since february i guess. And yesterday, i went to the clinic, bcs there are rashes appear in my body. I'd called my dad to come here. I know its not make sense at all, but i'm totally depressed withmy health condition. I tried to cure everything, but it seems quite late to have the result.. I know maybe patient is the key right? I've been diagnosed having an eczema. I dont know why it happen to me not people out there who didnt take care of their hygine at all? I keep asking and it make my mood goes away. I tried to motivate my self, but as i look at the rashes, i'm going to cry. But i hope this disease wont be long although doctor said it take a long period to fully recovery. I hope.. and I really hope. Abd i tried to be happy as I can.
Accept everything happened as a test.. you're the choosen one.. I always keep this words everyday and i wouldnt stop praying, that tomorrow will be better.. pray for me :)